God where are you?!

We’ve all wondered where God is sometimes. It seems like he isn’t anywhere. We know he is there but he feels so far away. The past several months I’ve felt dead inside. I knew God was there but I couldn’t feel him. I felt so lost, so broken and so afraid. I’ve been going through a spiritual battle. Literally there is a spiritual battle in my home. I have felt the presence of evil in my own home.

The other night my husband was gone and it was just me and my dog, Bandit. We were in the kitchen. I had just washed dishes and was getting ready to put some more things away. All of a sudden I got a horrible feeling and my dog took off running and ran and his on the couch. I went to him to see what was wrong and he was shaking. I sat with him for a moment and the feeling came back but this time it was stronger and I could literally feel a horrible evil in my home. My dog saw something and watched something walk across the living and the something stopped directly in front of us. I immediately got down on my knees and started praying. I asked God for protection of our home. I asked that if there was anything in our home that was not of God, that it be removed and be made known it was not welcome in Jesus name. I prayed and I honestly do not even know what else I prayed. Words flowed from my mouth and peace overcame me and my dog. As I knelt at the couch and prayed he laid down beside me and closed his eyes. After I was done praying a verse came to my mind. Matthew 19:26 “…With God all things are possible.”

 

I wrote it my fridge calendar and underlined ALL. I stood in my kitchen listening to a song and I lifted my hands, sang, praised and worshiped God. I felt his presence and was overwhelmed with joy all I could do was cry. I had peace in my heart for the fist time in a long time.

Believe it or not but it happened. I’ve been pressed down and felt like I was in chains of sadness and doubt. My heart was broken and I felt trampled. Things may not be perfect but they are getting better and I am thankful! The song Find You On My Knees by Kari Jobe came to mind.

 

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Find You On My Knees – Kari Jobe

Troubles chasing me again, breaking down my best defense, I’m looking. God I’m looking for you.

Weary just won’t let me rest, fear is filling up my head, I’m longing. God I’m longing for you. But I will

Find you in this place I’m in, find you when I’m at my end. Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness. You lift me up, you never leave me thirsty.When I am weak, when I am lost and searching. I’ll find you on my knees.

So what if sorrow shakes my faith? What if heartache still remains? I’ll trust you. My God I’ll trust you. ‘Cause you are faithful. And I will find you in the place I’m in. Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness. You lift me up, you never leave me thirsty. When I am weak when I am lost and searching. Find you on my knees.

When my hope is gone, when the fear is strong, when the pain is real and it’s hard to feel. When my faith is shaken and my heart is broken and my joy is stolen God I know that you lift me up you never leave me searching.

Find you in this place I’m in, find you when I’m at my end. Find you when there’s nothing left of me to offer you except for brokenness. You lift me up, you never leave me thirsty.When I am weak, when I am lost and searching. I’ll find you on my knees. 

This song speaks to me. So what, IF sorrow shakes my faith? So WHAT, IF heartache still remains? I’ll TRUST YOU. MY GOD, I’LL TRUST YOU. I will trust God! He never leaves me thirsty or searching. Other things in life do but not God. He is my healer, my savior, my love, my life, my joy, my hope and my salvation! So even when everything is falling apart God is allowing that so he can pick up the pieces and put them back together better than my attempt. He makes the pieces fit even when think they cannot.

 

 

When My Heart is Overwhelmed

Psalm 61:1-2 “Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer. From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heat is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”

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 My husband and I have a huge decision before us. We’ve been conflicted in our hearts. The decision isn’t one to take lightly nor is it one to make with haste.

 

 I’ve been praying and diligently seeking an answer. I have prayed a specific way to get an answer. I know God will give us an answer. I am trusting in Him fully. I know he can see things in the future that my mere human eyes cannot.

 

 Sometimes we want things but that doesn’t mean that it what God wants for us. Even when you don’t get the answer you want, still praise God because he has something better or he is keeping you from something that would harm you. He is wonderful, mighty, awesome, all knowing, loving, compassionate, the knower of our hearts desires and the keeper of our lives!

 

I am a clinger… a clinger to God and to specific scriptures in times of trouble. I am clinging to the above scripture. I also have found comfort in the song below.

 

LEAD ME TO THE ROCK – Ricky Skaggs

In seasons of grief,
To my Lord I’ll repair,
When my heart is overwhelmed,
With its sorrows and cares

To the ends of the earth,
To my God I will fly,
Lead me to the rock,
That is higher than I.

Higher than I,
Higher than I,
Lead me to the rock,
That is higher than I.

When Satan the tempter,
Rolls in with a flood,
To drown my poor soul,
From its fountain of good

I will cling to the Savior,
Who humbly did die,
Lead me to the Rock,
That is higher than I.

Higher than I,
Higher than I,
Lead me to the rock,
That is higher than I.

 

Click the link below to hear the song

http://youtu.be/_uIhoQeb6NE

Give Me Your Eyes

Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath

Give me Your eyes for just one second
Give me Your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me Your love for humanity

Give me Your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach?
Give me Your heart for the one’s forgotten
Give me Your eyes so I can see

Give me Your eyes for just one second
Give me Your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
That I keep missing

Give me Your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach?
Give me Your heart for the one’s forgotten
Give me Your eyes so I can see

 

Have you ever been so wrapped up in yourself and your problems that you forget that others have problems too?

I feel like I’ve been focusing on me so much that I’ve tuned out others and their needs. I can be so selfish sometimes. I could give you a million excuses but I won’t.

I was reading John 7:24, James 2:1-5 and 1 Samuel 16:7 today. It talks about the way God looks at people. I began thinking about if I look at people with God’s eyes or with “man’s” eyes. The majority of the time I think I look at others with “man’s” eyes. I don’t give people a second thought that I pass on the street or that I see pass by in a car. I thought about the song by Brandon Heath, Give Me Your Eyes. I like the verse “Give me Your eyes for just one second, give me Your eyes so I can see…” I know that I need to start seeing others with God’s eyes.

1 Samuel 16:7 says why we need to look with God’s eyes. “…Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart.”

We do look at others by what they wear. I am bad about that. I see a half-naked girl and automatically think what a hussy! I don’t look at her heart to see that’s what needs to change. I judge others by how they dress. We as a culture and people judge solely on looks. We see someone who is wearing all black, has tattoos and piercings and we think they must be dark and evil. They could be the nicest person you’ve ever met. Looks can be so deceiving. We see someone who is wearing dress clothes, dressed to the nine’s, and think they are successful and nice. They could be the rudest, meanest person you’ve ever met. God doesn’t look on the outward appearance. He looks at our hearts. Sometimes as Christians we can be mean to other Christians based on how they dress. We criticize people for wearing all they have to wear to church. Not everyone has dress clothes and suits. Some people may only be able to afford jeans and T-Shirts. God sees our hearts. He knows our intents and our desires.

John 7:24 “Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment.”

James 2:1-5 “My brethren, have not the faith of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Lord of glory, with respect of persons. For if there come unto your assembly a man with a gold ring, in goodly apparel, and there come in also a poor man in vile raiment; And ye have respect to him that weareth the gay clothing, and say unto him, Sit thou here in a good place; and say to the poor, Stand thou there, or sit here under my footstool: Are ye not then partial in yourselves, and are become judges of evil thoughts? Hearken, my beloved brethren, Hath not God chosen the poor of this world rich in faith, and heirs of the kingdom which he hath promised to them that love him?”

After reading those verses I started feeling guilty for thinking the way I do. God has that way of showing us what we should be doing through his word. He helps us to be better people and better vessels for Him. He wants to mold us and shape us so we will be Christ-like and we can be used for His Glory. We have to weed out the bad every day so we can grow and bloom fully in God’s light.

The First Commandment

In Exodus Chapter 20 God gives Moses the 10 Commandments. The very first commandment is Thou shalt have no other gods before me (verse 3).

What is the definition of a god? According to Merriam-Webster Dictionary a god is a person or thing of supreme value.

What things in your life could be considered a god? TV, computer, best friend, spouse, boyfriend/girlfriend, work, hobbies, sports or phone?

What things do you put before God? I am very bad about putting my favorite shows, comics and other books before God. I come home from work, eat dinner and sit down to watch my shows or read. I have time to read my bible or go to church I just chose to do something else instead.

I am not sure why that I do it, but it just happens that way. At lunch I also watch Netflix on my iPad. I have a bible ap on my iPad. It makes me upset that I do it. Sometimes I don’t even think about it. I just sit down and eat my lunch and watch a show or movie.

I had been good about reading my bible every morning. Recently work has been more stressful than usual and instead of reading my bible at lunch, I choose to watch a show to give myself a mental break. I’ve noticed that my days haven’t been as pleasant and I’ve found myself being more stressed out. The other day I had a meltdown. I do not normally have melt downs. I was upset about everything and worrying about everything. I had no faith about the situation. I was fretting when I should have been reading and praying.As a Christian I need God’s word to grow. It helps us with so many things!

I am striving this week to make time to read my bible.

 

Matthew 6:33 “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”

 

God made the first commandment to not have any other gods before him because he knew that if he was in the center and at the head of our lives all other things would be right in them.

My challenge to you is to examine your life and think about what you put before God and how you can make changes to put God first.

Sorry there’s not been a post for a while. It’s hard to get things from God when I hadn’t picked up the word! I apologize and promise to not let it go so long between posts.

Love in Christ!

Iva Mae

Fruit of Hate?! What a sour bite!

This past week I’ve been struggling with hatred in my heart against someone. I’ve tried to get rid of it but it really hard. This person isn’t a good person or even a decent person. The world would say I have reason and would justify my hatred. Jesus says love your neighbor as yourself. It is hard sometimes to have love for people who have hurt you and people you love. Sometime people are out of your life and then come back like a bad penny. This is what made my hate resurface.

 

It is easier to hate than love. That doesn’t make it right though. The person is someone who lives in sin and influences others to go down their path of self destruction. It’s hard to have compassion for people who act in such ways. As a Christian I can’t feel that their behavior is acceptable. Hate the sin not the sinner. I ended up praying that God would make a way for this person to not be involved in our lives anymore. I prayed that no harm would be done to this person. I just don’t want their influence or power over others around my family.

 

My devotion this morning about the fruit of the spirit (Galatians 5:22-25) gently reminded me that I need to cut my fruit of hatred off of my tree. It was making my branches weighed down. Sometimes you have to prune your branches so you can grow and get rid of all the dead things that weigh you down. It is not comfortable but it is necessary in order to grow. You will know a tree by its fruit. What does your fruit say about your tree? Do you need to get out the trimmers or maybe the chain saw (that’s what I need) to get rid of your dead limbs and bad fruit? I challenge you to examine yourself and get rid of the bad and work on producing more of the good. I am working on it! We all need a good pruning sometimes!

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The fruit of the spirit are love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness and temperance. What are these qualities that we are supposed to have?

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Love – unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another

Joy– : a feeling of great happiness; a source or cause of great happiness ; something or someone that gives joy to someone; a state of happiness or felicity; bliss ; a source or cause of delight

Peace – a state of tranquility or quiet: as; freedom from disquieting or oppressive thoughts or emotions; harmony in personal relations

 Longsuffering – suffering for a long time without complaining; very patient during difficult times; patiently enduring lasting offense or hardship

 Gentleness – the quality or state of being gentle; especially mildness of manners or disposition

                         Gentle – having or showing a kind and quiet nature: not harsh or violent; not hard or forceful; not strong or harsh in effect or quality; free from harshness, sternness, or violence

Goodness – the quality or state of being good

                        Good – virtuous, right, commendable, kind, benevolent

Faith – : strong belief or trust in someone or something; belief in the existence of God; strong religious feelings or beliefs; firm belief in something for which there is no proof; complete trust

Meekness – having or showing a quiet and gentle nature; not wanting to fight or argue with other people; submissive

Temperance – the practice of always controlling your actions, thoughts, or feelings so that you do not eat or drink too much, become too angry, etc.

 

 What fruit is on your tree? Which fruit of the spirit do you need to work on?

 

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The Heart

Today alone I’ve heard at least 6 or 7 comments from women about not feeling good enough or pretty enough and 2 have been from me.

There is so much pressure on women to look perfect. Turn on any television or get online and you will see adds for make up, hair color, shoes, clothes, breast augmentation, weight loss and self improvement. Every message we see and hear says buy this, wear this or do that and you’ll be beautiful. Some even give the message that unless you wear this make up or wear your hair a certain color you won’t be beautiful.

Anymore I hate watching TV. I like dressing up and wearing make up but I don’t need to wear those things to be beautiful. I was reading today and came across a verse about what defiles a man. It’s what comes out of the mouth because that comes from the heart.
Matthew 15:11 “Not that which goeth into the mouth defileth a man; but that which comets out of the mouth, this defileth a man.”

If we would start with our hearts and do things to improve our heart, we would see true beauty. Beauty lies in our hearts and our actions and words. You can put all the make up on and take diet pills and color your hair but if you don’t have a beautiful heart then there is no true beauty. I’ve seen a lo of girls who look beautiful when you first see them, but once you get to know them they are ugly.

We don’t have to let the world’s definition of beauty define our beauty. Let’s smash the lies and start over. Let’s start over where it matters, back at the heart.

I AM BEAUTIFUL

Today I did something a little bit crazy.  At first I didn’t want to do it! I thought it was a bit silly, but I did it anyways. I told myself this morning that I was beautiful, smart, kind and important. I wrote in RED lipstick on my mirror… “I am beautiful!” When I woke up I wasn’t feeling very beautiful. I’ve heard a few people say recently they don’t feel beautiful or feel down after comparing themselves to someone else. So I decided to make today’s post about that! Hope it helps someone!

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Sunday night on the way home from dinner with a couple of our good friends, we saw this brand new Mustang. The girl in the passenger seat had bleach blonde hair and was very pretty. At first I felt inferior. Then I really looked at her face and saw her expression. It was one of those I am better than you looks. She was laughing at my husband and I. I realized right then and there that I was prettier than she was. Who she was inside was ugly. She may have been pretty on the outside but she was ugly where it counts.

When we glance in the mirror we instantly criticize ourselves. We find every flaw. Mirrors can be good. They reflect light and can help you make sure you don’t have broccoli in your teeth. Mirrors can also be bad. They can give you a false vision of yourself that can make you feel ugly, fat, stupid, worthless, not good enough and undeserving.

I chose Lies From The Mirror as the name of this blog because I was sick and tired of feeling and thinking those nasty things above and seeing others feel that way as well! I often lack confidence. I am afraid that people will judge me based on if I had time to put make up on this morning or not. I worry that people will choose not to like me before they know me. It’s sad, but a lot of people do judge others based on appearances only.

Lies from the mirror are lies from the devil. I chose a cracked mirror for the background because we need to shatter those lies and stand up and say I AM BEAUTIFUL!!! I am a princess! A royal heir to THE KING of KINGS! I am a daughter of God. I am good enough! I recently read the book The Help. Abileen tells Mae Mobley every day, “You is kind, you is good and you is important.” Abileen knew the importance of making sure that Mae Mobley knew she was more than what her Momma or the mirror said.

What if we started saying that to ourselves, our children, our family and friends? We could change the world and break the image our minds see in the mirror!

Check out this video of this little girl who knows how to talk to the mirror! http://youtu.be/qR3rK0kZFkg